hurts..?

well, frankly speaking i dont know why i suddenly woke up in this early morning, and feels like so,, can be said so emo.. i started to checked my facebook, seeing people's comment, and i go to 'his' page,, hahaha,, well, i cant call him boyfriend anymore, but he is still my best-est  friend that i ever have ( for guy) read through a photo comment, fells like so pain suddenly, fine, abstrackly i am not supposed to be jealous, and i never feel so when we are in a relationship..

Things that i concern the most is, why? why the way they get close to one another is the same way as me and him last time, by quarelling, am i that ordinary person that can just easily be found in somebody's personality and character..?

hahaahha,, desperate..? ehm, nope!! i just feel curious why? why it can be such a coincidence.? in time, in people as well... haahah...

ok, just think this is the tough 1st month that i might involved in, then i will be used to, i can enjoy,, this is what i want, so i may not complain much about this,,,